Hardball 2017

To help prepare myself for the 2018 Giants Fantasy camp, I found an opportunity to play the summer softball season on an old man's team with my good friend Rob. While telling a couple of past teammates my motivation for coming out of retirement (I quit softball 8 yrs. ago), they told me they are currently playing on a hardball team with the REBL league (rebl.org). The season was half over already, but they invited me to come out and watch. I happened to be traveling though Rohnert Park one Sunday afternoon when I remembered they were playing close by that very day. So I stopped by the park and found them hard at it. I was stunned to see real hardball with older (45+) guys in full uniforms. The quality of play was surprisingly good, but not intimidating. In the 15 minutes or so that I watched, I saw great pitching, a blatant error, and my friend Leo bounce one off the right-field fence.

JV, the guy who told me about this, pointed across the diamond at an empty dugout (everyone was on the field) telling me that the other team was hurting for players. Maybe there's a chance I could play out the season with the Orioles? As I wandered over to their dugout, I wondered, 'Do you really want to put your body through this again?' What I really want is to enjoy the Fantasy Camp experience with as little pain as possible. And I am pretty sure this will help.

Through the dugout fence, I asked to talk with the manager. A tall, 50ish guy eventually stepped up, and I asked him if he could use another player. He looked me over, then asked, "How old are you?" I sheepishly answered, "63" thinking maybe I might be too old. Surprised, he smiled and said something like, 'good for you', and proceeded to tell me how to apply online. I immediately registered for the league and the following Sunday, I drove to Rohnert Park to play in my first game.

Game 1 vs Red Sox  - August 6

I showed up early and, as I introduced myself, everyone in the Orioles dugout greeted me warmly. Franc, the manager, told me via email that many of his guys were planning to be there, but he would try to get me in for an inning and an AB (at-bat). Then just before game time, he told me that it looked like they were short-handed and I may be starting. I did, and went straight into right field. Fortunately, I didn't have time to get nervous. The very first batter hit a liner base hit to right which I fielded cleanly and lobbed back into second. I continued to play all but one inning in right, and probably had 10 plays there, including two rather routine fly balls (if there is such a thing) and one shot down the line that I had to chase - fast! Luckily, I didn't make any errors.

Then there were the ABs (at-bats). My first was in the 3rd inning, because to that point, only one of our previous 8 guys had reached base. The pitcher on their team, a guy who I knew from managing little league, was dealing mostly fastballs. Although I had not witnessed anyone diving out of the way of a pitch, I was a little nervous stepping into the box. I decided to take a strike (not swing until I watched a strike go by), and the first pitch went whizzing by, right down the middle. And that is not a euphemism - it really did make a 'whizzing' sound as it went by. Holy S%*t!! It was faster than any hardball I had EVER seen thrown at me. The next pitch was a fastball moving away from me that I waved at after it breezed by. I managed to foul off the next two pitches, one of them being a change-up. I tried to shorten my swing, but he got me swinging at another hard slider. I confirmed with the ump that he didn't throw one ball out of the strike zone. I got plenty of high-fives back in the dug out, maybe for fouling a couple off, but mainly because that's the kind of guys these are.

My 2nd AB came with a runner on first and two outs. Again, a little nervous, I watched a fastball go by right down the middle. The next pitch was low, thankfully, as I was beginning to wonder if all pitches look good to me. I fouled the next couple of pitches off, then connected and hit a ground ball to the first baseman who threw to get the lead runner at second, but the ball went over the second baseman's head into left field. All safe, but I'm still hitless. I immediately forgot everything I had ever learned about base running. I was nervous and took a tentative lead, since this guy had already picked off a base runner after he got our first hit. It took me a couple pitches to realize that the first baseman wasn't even holding me on. With two outs, and a 3-2 count, our base coach reminded me to run on the pitch. On cue, I sprinted hard toward second, but the batter fouled it off. Reset, next pitch, sprint, then another foul ball. Then again, and another foul ball. Then again, and ball four. Ouch, I knew I was going to be sore tomorrow!

The next guy up was also working the count. I'm standing at second, the bags are loaded, and the home plate ump announces a 3-2 count. The pitcher steps off and turns toward the umpire at second and says, "That ain't right." The second base ump confirms a 2-2 count. A short discussion ensues. The 2-2 pitch comes and our guy on first base takes off running to second. The throw comes in late and he is standing on second, but I am standing 20 feet toward 3rd wondering what the hell he was doing on my base. He obviously thought it was 3-2. So I break toward 3rd, then the guy on 3rd breaks toward the plate. The throw goes home, a pickle ensues, and he is thrown out midway to home. The field clears as loud discussions take place. Back out to right field for me.

My 3rd AB I decide I am NOT taking a strike, and hit the first pitch on the barrel, right at the second baseman, and our guy at first is doubled off.
We lost 17-5, but it really wasn't that close. I was already painfully sore in my legs and back. I was pleased that my arm was never sore, even though I made two very hard throws from right, one from trying to throw someone out at first on a stinger line-drive base hit. I am hittless in three ABs with one SO (strikeout).

Two days later, and my legs are still sore. So far, this is the big take-away for me: there is WAY more intense running than I have done in the 8 years since I quit softball. I was older than everyone out there, and not everyone was sprinting for the ball or while on base (most were), but I am sure my teammates were happy to see that I was dumb enough to sprint. And they congratulated me for not pulling any muscles the first day out. I told them I had already pulled a groin muscle my second night of softball about a month ago.

I had a great time playing real baseball for the first time in 50 years. I only hope that I will play the next few games without much pain and without embarrassing myself too badly.

Note: The following are differences I observed in rules between REBL and MLB:

See the pictures taken at game 3.

Game 2 vs Phillies - August 13.

The quad muscles on my left thigh had acted up last during the week while playing tennis, which I knew were remnants from game 1 last week. But I ran sprints a couple of days before the game and it felt great. Before the game on Sunday, I drove to Scandia in Rohnert Park for some BP (batting practice).

When I arrived at the park at 1:30, almost everyone was already there. I stepped into the dugout, and Ed, the acting manager, looks at me as he's filling out the line-up card, and says, "oh yea, Gary" as he adds me in the 11th spot.

I go out on the field and see that 2 of the outfielders are taking fly balls. So I join them, without running or throwing first. Oops!cI have always enjoyed taking fly balls when I was young. One of the few happy memories of my dad and baseball was of him hittting high fly balls to me and a couple of my brothers (using bonafide hard balls) at Crocker Amazon Park on a Sunday afternoon.  So, I line up a few and easily put them away. Then, on an especially high one, I thought I had it lined up, but as it screamed to earth, I noticed it drifting slightly, and I never recovered. It bounced 5 feet behind me. How embarrassing! Then, on a rather lazy fly ball, I attempted a Willie Mays-style basket catch, and it hit the heel of my glove and dropped to the ground as I watched, horrified. A couple more catches, then another drop. This is NOT from bouncy-eyeball syndrome, which I do experience now when running for a ball, but from just plain dropping the ball. I sure hope I don't get any really high fly balls hit to me during the game.

Back in the dugout, DK (Dave Kennedy) asks me why I'm not wearing a jersey, (instead of the orange dry-fit t-shirt). Last week I wore a black t-shirt. I tell him that Franc had told me in an email that he will have a jersey for me. DK laughs out loud, "Ha, what makes YOU so special? We all had to buy ours. If you do get one, it will be two-sizes too big and have 'Hoppin' on the back". Everyone laughs, including me; that was pretty good. I played out the season wearing the t-shirt, although Franc eventually put a piece of surgical tape on my back making a '1'.

We're the home team, and DK and I will be platooning in right. He takes the field and I am in the dugout with someone I had just met: Dave who will catch the last two innings.

Three other guys that day were new to me:

Two guys who I met last week were NOT there: Huey, (a VERY good ball player) and manager Frank H.

Frank M. is our starting pitcher and has 3 good innings. DK goes to right the first couple of innings, then we were begging each other to go out to right, based on who is in the most pain. He convinces me that his pain is worse, so I go out and play the next several innings with sore quads. Thankfully, there are NO plays in right all game. Still, the jog in and out is a long one from the third base dugout.

On the mound, the Phillies start a tall, hard-throwing lefty with a good move to first. 

My 1st AB comes with a runner on first and third with one out.  I decide to take a strike and he pipes one right down the middle. He's not throwing as hard as the guy last week, but it was still maybe 60-65 mph. The third pitch is right down the middle; I make contact and hit a bloop single into right-center for my first base hit. A run scores from third and I am 10 yrs old again; I am beaming! Frank M, first base coach, congratulates me. The dugout is yelling. DK, now on third, yells, "I love you man" across the field. I realize I pulled my quad going to first, but I am too excited to think about it. Next person up gets a hit to right and I go from first to third. Ouch! What am I doing!!? The next guy hits a medium fly out to left and I tag up. A good throw gets there a step before me but the catcher drops a short hopper as I watch it bounce away. I didn't even think of sliding. My quad is definitely pulled now. Thankfully, DK goes out to right.

I warm up Ed (acting manager) in the bullpen. He takes over pitching and finishes the game. He throws maybe 55-60 mph and is always around the plate.

2nd AB - I hit a dinker off the fists to right and get another RBI. More cheers from the dugout, but my right hand is THROBBING! It feels like someone pounded my hand with a hammer. Turns out, the injury is more at the base of the pointer finger where the bat handle is wedged in my hand. This is not 'bee-stinging' in the hands, this is a bad bruise! I forget all about my pulled quad.

3rd AB - Before the AB, I ask Doug (hitting before me) if he has ever heard of a shock absorbing ring that goes on the thumb. He holds his right hand open and says, "You mean like this?" HA! I'm not even sure where I heard of it, but I want one of those right now. I haven't tried to throw since it was injured, but it would hurt like hell I'm sure. I have 2 strikes again. He throws a change up and I'm fooled badly, but I manage to hang back and drop the bat head on the ball, pulling a nice single into the hole on left side. Another RBI! We are killing these guys like 18 to 5.

While we are on the field, Tom makes a diving catch at third on a ground ball heading up the line, steps on the bag, then throws the guy out at first to end the inning. The place goes nuts including me. I love this!

4th AB - Chris, Frank M, and Anthony all hit balls off the fences. A new pitcher comes in and is dealing pretty hard, but a bit wild. Doug, hitting in front of me, takes ball 4 in the shoulder. As he turns to throw the bat toward me in the on-deck circle, I see him grimacing. I now start to wonder how much a fast ball on the back will hurt. I make a mental note to try NOT to take it square in the back. I step in and take a ball wide. Then ball 2, 3, and 4.  Whew! And I didn't hurt my hand again! I hobble to first. This game feels like it is going on all day but it's only the 6th inning.

5th AB - With Doug on first, a quick strike 1, then strike 2 on a questionable high outside pitch. I really don't want to hit, but I guess he's not going to walk me again. I think, "just don't hit one off the handle". The next two are high. The 2-2 pitch comes a bit outside and I pop it up to the right side. The second baseman goes out, the right fielder comes in and no one catches it. But Doug is thrown out at second. As it turns out, the official book, kept by us, gives me a base hit. Next batter doubles us off. They are up and down in order and the game is over. We WIN: 20 -7. I am 4 for 4 (not really) with a walk and 3 RBIs. They give me one of the game balls.

Game 3 vs Giants - August 19: Battle for last place.

I was going to start in right but I told Franc that my quad was still a bit tender so Anthony went out instead. I sat for two innings, then went into left for 3 or 4 innings. Before the game, Jim Henderson presents me with a brand new bat. He says, "It's yours!" he said, "I got a 3-pack." Wow, I couldn't believe it!!

Franc handed me a batting helmet. He didn't say it was mine, just that I could use it. I have been borrowing his and it will be nice not to go scrounging for a helmet just before I get up. I brought my camera and took a few pre-game pics but definitely got in my stretching and jogging/running/throwing.

The first inning in the dugout, Franc tells me that this pitcher, although not really hard throwing, nor with lots of junk, has owned the 'O's.  He is always around the plate. And he was. He maybe gave up a couple walks in the middle of the game, but he quickly recovered. He goes 9 innings. Frank M, on the other hand, started but never really found his stuff like last week, and was out after the second inning.

Brett and Tim showed up around the 2nd inning and took over picture taking for me and did a great job. (See the pictures.) I was sitting with him and Tim while our team was on the field. One guy on the other team ripped a SCREAMING shot down the 3rd base line and Doug, trying to make a play on it, managed only to deflect it with his right thumb. Brett screamed 'Hold Shit! and from then on he was totally impressed with the quality of play that day from a bunch of old men. At the same time, although everyone was playing to win, there was very nice camaraderie on both sides.

Doug, who got hit on the thumb and sat the second inning, came up to me while I was sitting with Brett and Tim and asked if I would 'warm him up'. I figured he needed to see if he could still throw with his right thumb hurt. We walked down to the bullpen. Holy Shit! He is thinking he is going in to pitch. We throw lightly for a few, then I step behind the dish and he puts on a pitching clinic! Heater, slider, and WICKED curve. Turns out he is one of the Oriole's best and most prolific pitcher. He pitches until the bottom of the 8th.

Offensively, we were struggling to get on base. It was the 3rd or 4th inning before I got up.

1st AB - I still feel a little pain in my right hand. I bought, and was now wearing, a shock absorbing thumb pad.  I'm not sure if it goes under my glove or over, so I go with over. Eventually, I don't even use a glove on my right hand. It works that well.

I step into the batter's box wielding a beautiful, brand new, unpainted, unvarnished, bat!! With a runner on first, I hit a hard roller between third and short. The third baseman got a glove on it and bobbled it. All safe. I have learned to take a couple strides toward first to get going, but I was definitely sprinting as I crossed the bag. No pulls and my hand is still good. 

2nd AB - I ripped a shot into the gap in right center. I took a wide turn at first and found the right fielder was just getting to the ball so I turned it on and headed for second. I slid into second knowing it would be close. I'm pretty sure I beat the ball to the bag, although the ball bounced away in the dust, and I got my first (and only) extra base hit! See a very short video taken by Brett: https://youtu.be/Mr7h5W2qleI

3rd AB - I am looking for a ball about waist high and out over the plate. No more inside pitches if I can help it.  With two strikes on me, I swung at a slightly high pitch and got under it and popped it up on the infield. I jogged to first thinking I should have swung at the first pitch.

4th AB - We were leading 3-2 going into the bottom of the 8th. Then they had a BIG inning and scored about 6 runs, three of them coming when our center fielder may have misplayed a line drive and he didn't get back in time. He jumped and it went off the top of his glove and to the fence. From the dugout I  thought 'Thank God that wasn't me.' The next was a towering shot to center over the fence, about 330 ft., the first (and only) homer I saw here.

Mike, batting before me, got a hit and was safely aboard at first. Wasting no time, I hit the first pitch a little off the handle, but cleanly into right for a base hit. I felt that one, but no real pain. The thumb pad works!

Ed, the lead-off hitter, roped one into right center. It looked deep enough, and I got a good jump, so I rounded second and headed to third. Somewhere in that stretch I felt my quad muscles. Franc, the third base coach, was waving me down, so I slid and just beat the tag. Ed took second on the throw. Franc high-fived me, then said, "A ground ball to the right, or a deep fly ball and you are scoring."

I replied, "Uh, we need like 4 more runs and there is 1 out. We don't want to take any chances, right?" He agrees, but what I really meant was that I don't want to sprint again. So the pitcher is now in the windup, and I take a big lead down the line. I've seen other guys do this and it looks cool. Frank M is at bat and he hits a hard bounder down the 3rd base line. Oops! I am already almost half-way home, so I just keep going, hoping that the 3rd baseman will realize my run is meaningless. I sprint home as he throws to first base for the put-out. I don't think my quad is pulled, but I am sore as hell. The next batter pops out to short and the game is over.

Defensively, I made a routine fly ball catch in left, then chased down a couple balls, one to the wall. Myself and Brett noticed that I get amped up when retrieving a ball and often have trouble finding the handle on the ball, like I try to throw it before I have actually grabbed it. After I finally do pick it up, the runner is usually just jogging into base, so there really is no need to hurry. I think of the major leaguers casually going into the corner to retrieve a ball and hurl it back into the infield. They know it's a double right off the bat. No need to hurry man!

They gave me a hit on the 1st AB, so I am 3-4 on the day. But we lose 10-7 and nobody on the Orioles seems to care.

My left leg feels like it is going to fall off at the hip, but I am having a blast!!

Game 4 - Vs Rockies. Sept. 10

A Sunday afternoon game, and I have had three full weeks of time off. I missed a week as we were in Tahoe with Junes kids, then no game on Labor Day weekend. Doug was hurt badly last week as he was running to second. He went right down with horrible pain in his old, artificial hip joint. Turns out it was just a ligament tear, but he is out for the season. He is in the dugout the dugout this week keeping the score book.
I invited Rob to come out and watch, and he noticed in his car just as the game started 100 degrees. It was well over that in the dugout. But my legs feel great. The guys that Rob and I played softball with are on the Rockies.
We had just enough players, so I started in right. Frank H, the manager, made his debut on the hill and finally got three outs. He pulled himself out in the second inning when he couldn't throw a strike. We were down by maybe three or four runs after 2 innings. Our team was pretty much up and down in order for the first three innings.
My !st AB came in the third inning, and as usual, I watched a first pitch strike go wizzing by about about 70 mph. I managed to foul a couple off, then watched a high heater, for a 1-2 count. Then, for the first time, I saw a 'Sergio Romo-style slider'. I was preparing myself for another fastball, and I saw it start in the strike zone, then it quickly started drifting outside. It was too late to stop my swing, and I proceeded to chase it way outside the zone and missed it by at least a foot for out number 3. Wow!!
My 2nd AB, I was a marked man for the big slider. Again, they waited until I had two strikes. At least this time I managed to get a bat on in and hit a grounder to third. I strained to beat it out, but came up a half step short.
My 3rd AB with a new pitcher, I took a walk and eventually scored as we began to mount a comeback.
My 4th AB I got up with two outs and a runner on third. I needed to keep the inning alive. Although I vowed to not go in the hole early, they started me with a slider and I chased it, again missing badly. Eventually, I again hit weak ground ball to third. The throw was offline as I steamed down the line, but JV, the first-baseman made a great catch and tag as I flew by.
DK, one of my many hitting coaches, showed up just after the game, still sporting a groin injury. He was very helpful telling me to pick up the ball rotation out of the pitchers hand. Good advice that is MUCH easier said than done!

I did a little defensive running during the game, mostly from right-field to chase two errant pick-off throws to first. I eventually moved to center for the last two innings. But my legs felt great after the game.
I was put soundly in my place as a rookie this game. And still, with only one game left, I'm having a blast!!

Game 5 - Vs Phillies. Sept 17: The last game

Sunday morning 10am, foggy and just a little cold. We have 8 guys, so Johnny is covering right center and me in left center. Ed made a call to DK who is still hurt with a groin pull, but he says he will come out. He shows up at the start of the second inning and did a great job at first base.
The Phillies start the same hard-throwing leftie who we saw last time. Again, not many of us are hitting.
My 1st AB - I get up with two down in the third and a two runners on. With a 1-2 count, I swing late as usual, and crack it high and fair down the RF line. The right-fielder races over and makes a nice running catch. It felt good though.
2nd AB - Right-hander this time with a nasty slider. With a 1-1 count, I wiff on a slider which goes way outside. Here we go again! Although I know I am getting another, it comes, and I chase it outside with no success. The guys get a good laugh outta that one, telling me it takes a couple years to learn to pick up the rotation and lay off it. I am consoled when I see a couple of veterans fall for the same pitch later.
3rd AB - Against a 'crafty' (slow-throwing) right-hander who barely waits after getting the ball back from the catcher before he pitches it. I take one for a strike, then the next outside. The next pitch was a perfect beach ball and I pummel a liner over the shortstops head for a loud base hit. At first base I realize I lost my large, borrowed helmet in the batter's box, so I call time out and meet DK down the line. As he hands it to me, I murmur to him that I am going to steal second on the first pitch. He nods, confirming that he will take the first pitch. As planned, I get a pretty good jump and take off on the pitch. The throw comes down and I think I beat the throw, but as I slide the ball is rattling around by my feet. I get up and dust myself off, and folks in the dugout are asking if I'm OK. Then I realize that they think I am still sporting a pulled quad. I yell across the diamond, "What? Should I steal third?" Immediately, the pitcher steps off the rubber and looks me back, but I was still standing on the bag. I tell him that I was only kidding.
That will be my last AB for the season, as a couple of innings later Franc, hitting in front of me, pops up on the infield for the last out of the game and the season. I'm 1 for 3 on the day.
Defensively, I am very busy in left field the whole day as there is not one left-handed hitter in the bunch. On the day, I make two rather routine put-outs. The rest of time I was in ball-chasing mode: foul balls, base hits, extra base hits, over throws down the line from the catcher. I make a point to take my time, patiently put my hand on the ball, then throw it in. I finish the season with no errors.
The following are the cumulative stats for the O's for the season from http://rebl.org/. I haven't even met six of these guys.



See the pictures that were taken at game 3 by myself and mostly Brett:
And a very short video of my one and only extra-base hit, taken by Brett. Thanks, son!!

Conclusion

This experience turned out to be far better than I had anticipated. I am sure this is in large part due to me to performing better than I expected (my expectations were very low). But also there is really an emotional attachment for me to the game of baseball, much like there is still an attachment to the songs I grew up listening to. There is really nothing so raw and fulfilling than hitting a hardball on the barrel of a wood bat. The crack is loud, but the feeling in the hands is almost non-existant. Hit the ball on the handle of the bat and it is a completely different experience as I learned in game 2.

Another big reason for the great time I had was my good fortune in falling in with this bunch of old guys. Not once in all five games did I hear anyone talking negatively about a teammate or an opponent, before, during, or after a game. In the weekly emails, and the lineup card, everyone had nicknames: Franc = 'Pope Francis'; Ed = 'The Deacon' and so on. They also wrote about '...the next bible study' which was confusing to me, as these guys expressed themselves in very colorful language (I fit right in). So before game 2, I asked Ed about their bible studies. He threw his head back with a loud chuckle, saying that they have bible study after every game at the local Hooters in Rohnert Park.

The last couple of innings of the season with these guys in the dugout was a total blast. Like 12 yr olds, they all started yelling encouragement to our batter in fast, loud, nonsensical chatter using words like 'barrel, bat, bubble'. I was laughing out loud. It was like no one wanted the season to end, thrilled to be enjoying the waning moments playing the game they love with the teammates they love. It was one, big, baseball love-fest in the Orioles nest.

I quit softball when I was 55 because it took my body three days to recover after trying to keep up with the demands of the kid inside me - that voice that yells loudly at me when I hit a ground ball in the infield, "Run!! Faster!! Faster!!" And nothing has changed with hardball. There are just too many other things I enjoy doing with my body that are less physically demanding. I look forward to fantasy camp and, hopefully, I will be in shape enough to enjoy my time there with my brothers. But this season playing real hardball was an experience I will never forget.


Many heartfelt Thanks! to all of the guys on the rebl.Orioles.45+ team.
PS: While writing this, I got a call from a teammate asking me to play next year for a different team in the 55+ division. We'll see.
-Gary